Truly tired tonight! I want to go to bed early because tomorrow will be a long day with a 24-hour flight to Vietnam, including stops. As soon as I closed my eyes, racing thoughts occurred. I know one of the best ways to let go of these thoughts is to dissect them, trying to understand why I have these thoughts.
Why am I so worried? Nature has its own way of taking care of business. My only pain is not seeing Jayden grow up, but with technology, we will be able to see each other through video calls. It won't be the same, but it will be alright. What else is my concern? Not really. My two children are grown, and they can take care of themselves. My duty in America is complete. I now have a bigger duty to take care of Mom, create jobs for others, and lend a helping hand to those in need. Merely $25 can feed 100 mouths in Vietnam. I would love to get involved in charity like this. I know what it's like to go to sleep hungry. Mom used to help a lot of the poor. I want to follow in her footsteps and inspire others to do the same.
Vietnam is waiting to welcome me with open arms. It's a place where I will have no worries. Even if I don't need to work, with my pension and retirement income, I will be just fine. I can use my knowledge to teach students who want to learn English and pass exams for different English certificates. I can even help cook in the kitchen to feed the hungry. I can be with my childhood friends. I have so few responsibilities and so much freedom.
Sleep well, my dear self. Everything is happening as I have always wished for. Take a deep breath and believe it will be a great future ahead. I know it's scary to walk into the unknown territory, but it is the right path that I have prayed for a decade.
I sincerely pray for my loved ones and friends here in America for good health and happiness. I truly appreciate all the love you have given me. May God protect you and your family from harm. God bless! ♥️
Crystal H. Vo
January 13, 2024